When I (can not) sleep

I'll try again to write. Keep trying and keep failing is still better than giving up straight away, right? Right?!
I realized tonight that, usually when I could not fall asleep at night, ideas will just flood in. These ideas tend to be more couragous.. For example last night I was turning around in bed and completely toasted by the thought of hosting a dinner party on Sunday night inviting my colleagues despite the fact that in a few hours it was already Friday early morning and this beautiful idea was still immature in my stomach... When I finally reach the office though, I started to hestitate:
... mmm, what if none are in Bonn...
... what if only a few would come....
... isn't it just all too random for Germany anyway???

So in the end, the plan was dead in my stomach...

there is a second me in those half awake half sleep moments