so I was really happy this noon after receiving an email from an old friend of mine, I decided that I deserve a cup of latte for this little joy of my secret. Bup, a big cup of nice latte, went out, raining like hell!!! the worse thing was - that I was actually have more than a cup of coffee in my hand. I confessed that I couldn't resist the charm of the mange icecream. Can you imagine the picture now? - Rain (heavily), Cup of latte, Ice cream (without any cover).

and the girl in the shop was so kind that she actually brought me a chair from outside and asked me to wait till the rain stops.

2 seconds "NO! I don't wanna wait, I wanted to get a cup of coffee and ice cream maybe, then I want to go home to enjoy them in my small messy room, nothing can stop me doing so, not even the rain." so I walked out, walked so fast almost like running (can't run with hot coffee), using my jacket to cover my coffee, with ice cream in another hand. GREAT! it feels great. Indeed. The happiness of being able to do what I want to do and - being able to realize that someone/something was not mine and I am glad that it was not and it won't be.

I learnt to let go.